People search their entire lives in all to find themselves. When their gifts, talents, and calls were with them before birth. One of my former students is an excellent drawer, he was only in the first grade. He can draw cartoon characters accurately. No classes just name a character SpongeBob, Spider-Man, or Goku, you name it he can draw it.

Just think back, when you were younger, what did you love to do? What did you do proficiently? Was it writing, maybe math, music, singing, or solving a hard problem? Somewhere along the line, as we got older, most of us stop doing what we love in order to find love. We threw away those “childish things” as we saw them. Just thinking they were a fad, not knowing that they were instilled within use from birth. How does one spin the majority of their adulthood searching for themselves, or looking for the other half when from the beginning we were a whole person? Saying that you are looking for your other half, meaning that you were never whole, which means that you were broke or broken. Let us look up the word broken: (adjective \ˈbrō-kən\: separated into parts or pieces by being hit, damaged, etc.: not working properly: not kept or honored:  violently separated into parts)-Merriam‑Webster.

Something that is broken means that it needs fixing, by other artificial means. Stop and think, if my PC stops working, I will have to call Microsoft, or take it to BestBuy. If my phone acts up, I will have to call T-Mobile. If our cars are not working, we have to take the car back to the dealer or a repair shop. When somebody works on something that’s broken, they take out the bad part and replace it with a new part, which means that the item gets repaired, but the part is the same just newer. If you were broken from birth, how do you know what parts need to be replaced? Will the other person really complete you? If that person were broken too, how would they know that your part would fit them?

We were never broken, we just assume this because we do not use our God-given right, and understanding of His will for our lives. We spend so much of our lives, trying to find things that were never lost. We feel that we are inadequate to produce life. We spend so much time trying to find love; (well most people are not looking for love they are looking for affection) or the characteristics of love. In much, when they do not see it nor get those characteristics of love, they are willing to walk away saying that they are broken.

 How did you know that you were broken? Was that other person not a suitable fit? What! Not the right “part” for you? So do you go and look for it in another? So many people use marriage as an escape to fix their own life situations. As people stated their vows, they are only spoken as words. (That is if they say vows now a day). Most people now write their own vows. Let us look up the definition of a Vow: (noun \ˈvau̇\: a serious promise to do something or to behave in a certain way: a solemn promise or assertion; specifically:  one by which a person is bound to an act, service, or condition.)- Merriam‑Webster

Okay, you say “I’m not married I’m single”, but you are still saying that you are going to find yourself? So many people will sell their houses, quit their job, and go on a long cross-country trip all to find themselves. So when were you separated? Did you forget where you were? Let us go back to when we were little kids. Some of us wanted to grow up to be a doctor, a lawyer, a teacher, and presidents of the United States. So what happened? Ah, you say Life moreover, “the mistakes”. We wished we had listened to our parents; (because you know, when we were younger, our parents did not know what they were talking about). Just because life did not come the way we feel it should have, does not mean that we are cautiously lost in a rapidly spinning cyclone called life. Sometimes, you just have to get off the Ferris wheel.

When I was around 27 I started to feel… well unhappy, because I felt that I did not accomplish most of my goals, and I was about to turn 30. I felt to see, all the happiness and joy in life that was all around me. I had people who loved me, I had a job when most people did not, I had a roof over my head when some people did not, and I was still alive when so many of my classmates are Six Feet Under. Oh, I had a list of things I wanted to do before I turn 30, and you know some of them I did and some I did not do. I thank God for closing certain doors in my life. For if those doors had presented themselves, I know that I would not be here right now. Most people get upset when doors were closed in their faces. I, on the other hand, realized the danger. I love the fact that I do not have “baby mama drama”, oh there could have been a time, or dealing with a criminal record. I am not saying, that I am better than anyone, or I’m belittling your life, trust I got some dirt too. I just chose to keep the God-close doors closed and I had sense enough not to force my way in.

Now that I am 30 +, I am living the best life that there is, and I did not have to go anywhere to find it, nor did I go looking for it. It just happened, because I was not going by what I felt life should be, but because I waited for life to come to me. If I had walked away when I wanted to, I would have never met people who push me to greater or have the benefits that I have now. So stop looking for yourself, or trying to find your other half. You were whole from the beginning, learned from your mistakes, and used them to change! peace, I’m out.